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sometimes you just miss.

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end of the day, everything would be thrown at me.

what about your heart?
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how can you even squeeze two stubby legs into the pants? (: if there was more of such moments, the happier my life would be. dont touch me & everything started crushing. dont say those words & it left me with nothing. In my life there was always you it already included you everywhere i go, every little thing i do because to me, that is all that matter, that is the most important like how i choose my things to be like, it has to concern you. but i never will let you sweat let you suffer because that is how i care how i protect somebody i loved. i stand the front line, i fight everything first, even your cough for you and not you.

Jon B. They dont know
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Heard about my past
things I used to do
the games I used to play
the girls that didn't last
I know what's on your mind
you think I'm doin wrong
can I say what is real
you are the only one
when I'm not around
do you think I'm me
or what the jealous ones
are claimin me to be
you should know by now
that it's gonna take
alot of trust from you
for us to make it through
you should know baby
you're my angel
nothins gonna make you fall from heaven
girl i just wanna love you

Don't listen to what people say
they don't know about
bout you and me
put it out your mind
cause it's jealousy
they don't know about this here
Girl let's talk about
what your friends told you
that I'm a selfish man
want my cake and eat it too
maybe in my past
but you've changed me now
now that I've learned to love
it's you that showed me how
you're love's so real
I'd be a fool to play
to play around on you
I hope to stay with you
you should know by now
that it's gonna take
alot of trust from you
for us to make it through
you should know baby
you're my angel
nothin's gonna make you fall from heaven
girl I just wanna love you (love you)


Diamond Ring or Fighting Spirit
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321 Singapore Combat Engineers

01 SEP 09 to 08 SEP 09
02 MAR 10 to 09 MAR 10


a fugitive
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sometimes the shoulders are overloaded with shits. sometimes nobody understands you. sometimes you just need listening ears, maybe one will do fine too. sometimes you cant breathe sometimes you are lost sometimes you are alone. sometimes you need luck but sometimes you end up stuck. you gave nothing but you expect something. i need a break at some lost island with crates of booze, away from the net, from the phone anything that do with technology. i need the sand, the beach, the water and waves and maybe unexpectedly weird, an ogawa massage chair too, a fishing rod & a tefal bbq pan.

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when im seemed like nothing no more.


the danish dumbness
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i wondered if any of you had ever felt disappointed with your ownself before. there was once i felt totally shitty when i screwed up my own work in the air. i cocked things up and things didnt flow smoothly as it normally does. there were nonstop apologies. there were tempers. and this happen when i was so confident with my own work, apparently oblivious. today, in copenhagen, i was equally disappointed with myself maybe double the dosage of shitness. there was illegal gambling activities around the walking streets and i pretty amused by their operations. curiousity indeed kills the fucking pussycat. 3 small boxes and a tiny crush paper ball in one of them so guess the right one. ive no fucking idea why i was so overwhelmed by money and i was so confident that i got the right box with the ball in there. for no fuck reason, i actually took out a 100dkk=S$30 (approx) and gave the man who was stirring up the situation. anyway i felt right why not earn that dirt peanuts. man took my cash and change the boxes promptly when i was shouting to get back the money! it was like you woke up suddenly during that situation and feel like wtf zhao what are you doing? but i know i couldnt get back and i open one of the boxes. true enough, its an empty one. as i continued walking down the streets, different countries and cultures started flashing across my mind. i looked like some forlorn figure in denmark not because of the money lost but something that was lost in me. ive seen so many countries doing this shit and i know they are fucking cheaters yet i was so silly enough to fall in their trap. was it a cheap thrill? or was it greed? unlucky? or what the fuck i just did? what the hell i did? i will never forget this lesson.

its 10:40pm now in copenhagen, 4:40am in singapore. happy 7th month of togetherness my big baby danielle. i know you are in the air to auckland though. boyfriend misses you. me loves you. you. me. turn clockwise with two thumbs crossed. two thumbs crossed move forward. baby should understand this. you always make me feel better when i think of you. and that includes today's incident, the danish dumbness. me.

CHECK THE PULSE! WE ARE LOSING HIM!!!
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its pretty amazing how overpopulated this tiny country is, though ageing yet happening. this is what i noticed recently. we open IRs then why banned compulsive gamblers. why? often hear hawkers complain of how bad this global recession is, probably resulted in the infamous tiger prawns from newton. why? few days IT fair, cheapskate faces everywhere.  local men fooling around HDB corridors naked; emails had been circulating. just had buffet spread at kushinbo and realised how practical singaporeans can be (ie. snow crabs). full house anyway. recession? on the way back, saw a man talking to himself and people around him started giggling instead of sympathizing the mentally ill. are all the holy souls outta of their control?

i need a maldives break man.


hitta me baby
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HOLIDAYS SOON.

just lose it!
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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

We are supposed to change as we grow up. So i did a little personality test to see if i really do. bullshit as usual. anyway it was more like a facebook application to waste your ass time. i mean what else do we surf the net for? facebook la, hotmail la, soccernet, my sq net la, yahoo la. the usual stuffs. you switch on ur lappie you sign in ur messenger you check ur mails you check facebook. what a mono lifestyle if we had a lappie. probably the newest i ventured into right now is karaokeparty.com whereby you sing like a retard facing your lappie screen and the system will give you scores for your vocals. after which you had to wipe off the saliva on your lappie screen. ive tried it so i know okae. try it you will understand.

its quite paranoid but i think i gain a kg after returning from athens. i ate like so much carbo and its makes you feel so fat that sometimes when you wanna jump for joys you got stuck. this sentence just keep repeating itself you got stuck. you got stuck. i still remembered there was a day i had Popeyes 2pc chix set fries and onion rings and there was this two obese ladies having their individual set of Popeyes. its quite bad that i had a tendency to observe people around me. so they were gorging so was i. there was consistency in the speed they finish their food much faster than i do even though i started earlier than them. then one of them took out her wallet and disappear. i thought she was going to wash her hands, well i hate chickie-stinko fingers. she surprised me when she came back with 2 sets of 2pc chicken. i choked on my food and felt so gross. i stop eating immediately. i doubt im suffering from anorexic illness because im always hungry. like now. hahah. okae this is so bad talking abt this.im fat too la fuck. but i think its time i start to exercise BECAUSE IVE YET TO TAKE MY IPPTTTTTT. period.


Rawrr
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keeping the entries alive
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time stops because of you. the earth moves because of you. if you are the wind, i wanna be blown away. life is full of energy because of you. the stars shine because of you. though happiness is so minimal in this world, yet i have you.
hours to amsterdam. the sadder the feelings.
the missing you part started last night. :(

Dinner today at?
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http://ieatishootipost.sg/2007/09/wow-wow-west-tie-yellow-ribbon-round.html

best of 2008
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08. ive finished my memorable career in the army as a combat engineer commander. happily met danielle during my training days. muacks. then 4mths into flying. ive been to various cities, countries, places, eaten different types of cuisines, slept into many kinds of 4s/5s hotels. incheon, taipei, houston, san francisco, paris, moscow, nagoya, osaka, abu dhabi, milan, perth. more & more. like I say, its not just travelling, its hard work too. but well its isnt that bad cos ive been to everywhere on this earth. almost. even rich men's kids can never pull off such a feat. :) obama got elected when i was in houston, i was also at galveston where the hurricane strikes the state, texas too, then we had the wall street crashed, innocents killed in mumbai, bush got thrown by a shoe...well well well and here it comes, 09. lets all hope for the best. world peace?

cheers.

021208 - 091208
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The fucking hungry look.

xoxo.

Started with Cupcakes.

Sweet Tooth. No wonder woman in love tend to gain weight faster.

And thats my baby.

See how she owns her throne, younger bro beside, obviously looking for opportunities to disturb the mum who is oblivious.

The mum and his elder son.

The moment.

The joys of looting, photo courtesy of the younger brother.

Shan & Fahmi who had to self claim the face was not too fat.

2nd cake. The pandan with pineapple tart. Wheres your singers dear?

:D

Last cake from canele. boo.

love you dear.

:D
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Its like 22more mins to my darling's birthday.



happy 20th.


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off days

 


happy birthday
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its mickey's 80th birthday.

And do you know?
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i remembered how we finally had that lively conversation that day in the bus after repeated nudging from your friend to be nice. to me, you were conspicuous in training school even if i often tease you to be vertically challenged. apparently known for being cocky, every girl in school were probably ditsy to me. i saw you the first time when i was introduced to you. i like the retarded way you expressed yourself and say hi. you will laugh if i showed you. i never told anybody the truth why i changed a mode of transport to school. bus instead of mrt? com`on i hated the smell on the seats, especially when you got nothing to hold but the hand grips on the seats. but the risk was worth everything, just for some conversations or secret stares. we shared similarites. so much you thought im your sister. how anal we can be together. i'll just cut down to the chase and you were someone i could really get to know. ive found you. so much ive forgotten how we landed ourselves on msn. how i gave my number and when you sent your first message on 050908." BOO MCP!.." i enjoyed the two hours wait. i was enthusiastic about the short walk with you home. i like the feeling of seeing you from fri to sunday. im the sort that cherishes the little things in life. pretty soon i realise you were the only thing i like going to school. graduation was filled mixed feelings. i didnt want to graduate so fast. i knew i had fallen into it. i knew you had stepped into my life. i expressed badly again when i say any days, you choose? i ought to be slapped. but i didnt mean that way because everyday is important with you around. slap. remembered i said i let you vent your anger on me? even if your flts were bad, go ahead and bite my cheeks. i'll do what to make you smile. okae its pain la i'll just complain a little. bear with it. i like doing housework for you even if i dont do mine; ironing ur kebaya, clothes, pants, packed your stuffs. nag at you, look at you. i like sipping your tea away when you brew a new one. your mcp doing it. he must be possessed. when im overseas, you will be portrayed on my mind 24/7 even when i goes to the toilet and did a dump. remembered we talked this on your bed too? its gross, i remembered you like the feeling of being healthy. haha. moscow houston in 2hrs time sucks i swear, hell with the money. my tears on your bed probably cost more than anything. okae it wasnt dust afterall. overseas without you is a torment. i hated the job, hated myself.im sorry that i make you feel like an idiot, felt stupid. im sorry you had to wait. im sorry you had to suffer. im sorry i love you more than anything. im sorry i made you cried. i am sorry. i never wanted to hurt you in anything. i promise myself to you happiness promise myself to you solely. im missing you. :(

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